Shock Value

Abrasion tone elevated in a reapers home, laceration face palm'n in your throne, bow fainting out. The knee drop in front of your door to the exit wound walking a blur, I couldn't rearrange my face when it came down to the stare. It took a rejection to cause you to snap, should of thought of that before you left me for crap. In defense, I let you off the hook so easily, I mean seriously all you should of done was please me to leave it be. No remorse so I jumped the gun with the next, which is now another ex in respect I regret. The rush for another just seem so lush, I can't disrespect myself to go beyond a modern day crush. I leave it at that to find tranquility while the will is free. Adjusting a common goal, my life is still ready to unfold, the stories I've told really never gets old.

Outlook

A new start in life heading directly for the brighter side of things can only be that of a good thing. Sometimes, picturing what it would be like in the future can relieve what's been having a firm grasp on your memory from the past right this instance. It holds a positive attitude to strive for no matter the situation. When things get sour and start to shower, the best way to deal with it
is running for an hour. Stress and pain, agony and problems, frustration and anxiety are exfoliated as the negative glands exits the innocent skin from damaging itself any further. Sinking self-esteem degrades and chips away the character aura of which we feel individually. To recover the loss of personal character growth, it's inevitable to avoid major catastrophic red flag events, this excludes anything obvious.

Cigarettes

At the steady peak of many wasteful days and nights beginning summer of '97 through '02, I cannot recall the exact time of day (summer '97) of when I started smoking cancer sticks but the primary reason was, no, not to be "cool" but that of personal issues like an alternative to relieving stress. The lack of parenting is sure to be a likely candidate to blame first and foremost, then again, I see this problem as a learning experience. Not every kid that grows up under strict rules ever follow the orders put out by parents in the first place, unless of course, they come from another background. The endless possibilities of screwing up very young is not far fetched but that of natural selection. My father is a hypocrite but he has put an effort to sway me in the right direction by telling me not to smoke and yadda yadda yadda. Being the youngest of three, I can surely say, no one was ever there to look over or after me. The only immediate “family” I've endured were the acquaintances that surrounded me during these young free times. It's official as of yet that smoking is a thing of the past not to ponder and dwell on the hardship that leads me here presently. While polluting my lungs heavily prematurely, I've concluded that no matter what type of smoke enters your body, cold turkey is the most rewarding accomplishment to attain. Once you start to feel the wrath of nicotine and any other chemicals associated by inhaling toxins into your system on a day to day basis, then, you'll know it's time to put up that lighter and call it quits.

On a side note... Left on Earth 2

Three luckies from every pack I've bought have always been saved for the final few puffs. I treated those 3 as if my life was on the line for every encounter and in one instance did I believe it save me for some odd reason. One night I went downstairs in the complex I resided in to enjoy the last lucky cigarette I had in possession with me only to spark up that very moment to gunshots from a guy standing 15-20 feet away letting loose trigger happy. In the split second of hearing and not seeing right when I sparked up the lucky, I had no choice but to run up the stairwell onto the second floor. Minutes later, I come to see a bullet hole penetration from the right side of my Levi's where my knee is located (enter and exit hole). It was only one inch away from taking my knee out and should I thank the superstitious conscience of believing in luckies. Being shot is not what makes you harder or stronger but represents an equal amount of danger to the person who escaped death one too many times as opposed to not ever point blanked or targeted on a few occasions at all. So, don't ever forget those luckies whether 5 or 3 flipped upside down after a fresh pack packin'.

Persevere

Ignorance is bliss when filtering the damned unknown to man when casting a solution to a cause unheard of principles over matter mended minds. Uncontrolled naive propelled actions damage the soul but strengthens the heart profoundly for a cure. Self sustained and contained thirst for righteousness penetrates the deepest, darkest, and dirtiest fortress to withstand the opposition to take into account the forthcoming consequences. Instinctual feelings are best explored in pursuit of the purveyor with untainted aggression for the best outcome...

The Gerald Desmond Bridge

The Gerald Desmond bridge between Long Beach and Terminal Island is an amazing structure to run on. It's about .97 miles from one end to the other and running one way is not an option unless you are headed elsewhere. The start up stretching area, just outside Molina Healthcare is an ideal place to warm up. From that point on towards the GD bridge is approximately .67 miles. So, basically it would be an overall 3 mile (5k) cardio round trip. That would be a great starting position to and from if consider a beginner or starter, whichever suits you. Now to add on additional miles, it would be recommended to do a little research and pick a business center, or better yet, an area of interest whether it be residential and/or business further away from the initial starting location. As you progress in time and/or speed/pace, then it's soley up to you to find other unique jogging/running spots. This is great for anyone looking to get away from the treadmill or simply just to explore your surroundings.

Accelerated

The LHC(Large Hadron Collider) is a very intimidating scientific system put forth in testing by none other than CERN. The main purpose of it's use will be to further explore the magnificent atoms that make up the universe of what it is today. An experiment to try and obtain "Big Bang" theory like temperature in a controlled environment examined by highly qualified physicists and scientists alike. I have seen on a few pages of media about concerned citizens worrying about it's primary and life defying use, but have not dived into comments as I can already see the accusations that would hinder the educational purpose. This is an interesting test being put out by the founders of the WorldWideWeb. There's even an atom in the name of God himself of which we are seeking to match the equation of the nano instance. I stand with the physicists in order to gain a piece of time and space itself added with what we know as massive energy mingling with each other to eventually become what is now, the Universe.

Meantime

Seasons change and so do people, reasons arrange around the leap hole, Times push forward and we seek the past for things that don't last, Presently speaking for the many weep whores and tragedy crash, Dragged out from existence and faced with a distraughtful living mass. Until the we find the inner sanctum of sanity with pleasant forms of humanity, I give thanks to the donor of seeds he has bestowed upon me, Not raised rightfully, but grew up along the way despite the fee, I'm talkin' natural consequences for natures intentions, donned the blame of detention, With plenty of tensions comes will of another resurrection. Predetermination racin' above inflation, cast a shadow of a greater later nation, Not enjoyed by propaganda but a lively agenda, No wonder I'm livin' under a heavy coup de'tat mantra. Philosophical intellectual property preach poetry, I'm no entry but sleeps knowingly. Given up fear in search of hope, Greet life as it is, It's fucking dope.