G.24

I've heard of a saying that goes "If you let your love go, they will come back if its true." I'm not questioning its validity nor would I want to ever go through a situation that involves questioning ones faithfulness to another. But, here I am, in a whirlwind full of headaches, thrown down to the depths of heartbreak Hades, I face a difficult time inhaling life before we speak. This person whom I am so deeply engrossed in is practically saying I'm one bad move away from never seeing her again. I don't know what went wrong, I just know it was unjustly driven to overdrive in a matter of moments. I can sit back and analyze the whys and whatnots but I have chosen a different approach. Sending notes upon notes may have eased this person I am in love with into maybe reconsidering our stance amongst each other. It has been said that I have caused an ungodly amount of stress triggering unhappiness the moment she sees me. But, to this day, I know I have been really level-headed of my shortfalls and "wrong-doings." From what I can gather, her solution to previous incidents, arguments, kerfuffles, etc. (nothing detrimental in terms of forgive and forget), is to shut herself off completely. This in turn leads to a couple of build ups and surprise, let it all out in one go. It is unfair to have gotten over the previous isolated incidents and lump them all together when the feeling is no longer being felt. I understand internal strife and conflicts, and combining them with the held onto beef whom I thought were extinguished, can ruin, I mean totally destroy what the significant other (in this case, me) is feeling. Throughout this ordeal (mind you, it's ongoing) I have expressed my concerns and relentlessly displayed my affection towards this person I'm in love with. I've taken all things asked into account and let her breathe. I'm holding onto a belief that things will improve. I am currently awaiting her return. She is as free as ever like we never met. My love, you decide.